“I’m tired. I have had enough.”

Have you ever said that yourself? I have, a lot of times. I chose not to continue pursuing several areas in my life and I regret doing so. While looking at other people achieve so much, I was on the side line muttering to my defeated self, “It was not meant for me after all.”

Yet, I realized over time how that kind of thinking imprisoned me from obtaining my goals and dreams. I knew that I was not good at sports or other physical-related events, but at least I can try before concluding that I was an automatic failure.

Known to most of my close acquaintances, I don’t know how to ride a bike. Unlike other children, I did not have the enthusiasm to learn as I would rather spend my time drawing and making crafts at home. This proved to be disadvantageous for me as I needed to have some sort of transportation going to work, especially as I would have rostered days when I would be called back to work to assist in emergencies in the hospital.

Recently, my good friend attempted to teach me how to ride the bike. Sadly, I could not even advance and have a hard time balancing the two-wheeled bike. One of my workmates even repaired and cleaned up a bike to practice on, which is still parked on the back of my unit.

With life, it may feel the same as we are confronted with different problems or challenges. Some may start blaming their past circumstances: If I was more prepared… If they taught me how… If I had the right resources.. The reasoning goes on, but the challenge still exists.

However, people who succeed have not been exempted from those struggles. They were the ones who chose not to park their bikes behind and continue learning despite the falls or bruises they encounter. They rise from their mistakes knowing what to do the next time they are faced with the same situation.

I knew that I could not keep my balance riding the bike since I was conscious of pedalling. My friend pointed out that I should keep my focus straight ahead and not look at my feet. Similarly, there are things in life that are beyond my own control and that I should learn to let go and listen to instruction. There were so many times when I end up hurting because of my stubbornness- insisting on what I want for my life. I lost focus and went on a downhill crash of regrets.

Yet, those failures in life where the directions I needed. My friends would ask me how I see myself in five or ten years time. Honestly, I don’t know yet. What I do know is the purpose of where I am currently. There have been difficulties, but I am hopeful that the Lord will show me where to go next with my venture in life.

So dear friend, let’s keep believing and not quit. Oh, and I can still try riding a three-wheeler bike, don’t you think? 🙂

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