I am one who spent nights thinking about the words others said;
I was one who was frustrated, feeling no matter what I did,
I could never be the other person- the pretty one, the smart one, the popular one.
My internal struggle ate away my consistencies, I did try to hide them.
Lord, I was one who felt like it was always day one.
I was going to change, but I wanted to think of more reasons not to ask for Your help.
I was scared, I did not want to show how I was weak.
Yet, constantly, in days of turmoil or ‘alright’ moments, You never fail to remind me.
My motives were centered on my ego, and the acceptance of others;
forgetting that these have drawn me farther from the heart of Yours.
To be content and grateful for who I am and know that I have the capability to do more through You,
I choose to be kinder to myself today.